Recovery from eating struggles is not unlike a who-done-it mystery. Imagine you are watching a play and the question arises: Who killed the Old Lady? Was it the Maid? The Butler? Or the Chauffer?
Now at first glance, you notice the Maid. She stands out immediately – because her style of dress is strikingly different, her gestures are somewhat dramatic, and her manner is a little suspicious. She moves across the stage like someone who is rather insecure, or like someone who has done something wrong and is constantly looking around to see who is watching her. As the story unfolds, all eyes are on The Maid, but as you follow along deeper into the mystery, there is a sudden twist, and much to your surprise — it was the Butler! All those who were watching the Maid’s every move so closely failed to notice the more discrete activities of the Butler, the real culprit.
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The Maid is the Red Herring. The Red Herring is a term from the early 1800’s where those wishing to sabotage a fox hunt would get a red herring from a local fishery (which, because it had been smoked had a very strong smell) and drag it along the route, confusing the hounds by distracting them from the scent of the fox. In 1807, a political journalist wrote a story about how, as a boy, he had used a red herring to deflect hounds chasing after a hare. He used the story as a metaphor to criticize the press for publishing stories that took attention away from more important matters (perhaps some things never change). And the metaphor stuck.
Nowadays we use the term metaphorically to describe something that is misleading, that distracts us from the real issues, or creates a false trail. In our who-done-it story, the Maid is the distracting element. She is the Red Herring. Her character was designed to capture our attention and mislead us so we would not pay attention to more subtle clues surrounding the Butler and we would fail to immediately identify him as the guilty party.
The Red Herring shows up often within the mystery of the eating disorder story. Those involved with trying to solve the mystery — individuals who are caught up in the struggle, concerned family members and friends, and at times even professionals – can get so wrapped up in the more blatant eating and food behaviors that they fail to notice the more subtle, but significant factors, contributing to the problem. While obsessively counting fat grams and calories, or watching the number on the scale go up or down, they can become so distracted with food and weight that the real issues contributing to the disordered eating never get revealed. The mystery remains unsolved, and the eating disorder persists.
What needs to happen is a twist in the story where participants (or those who want to help them) can recognize that the food, the fat, the numbers on the scale, are functioning as distracting elements designed to divert attention from the real issues — which are much more subtle, perhaps even invisible to the naked eye.
What might those issues be? More often than not, they involve our emotions and the difficulty we experience identifying, accepting, and expressing the uncomfortable emotions that arise in our psyche day in and day out.
Disordered eating thoughts and behaviors are, by design, created to distract us from emotions that seem too painful, too overwhelming, too complicated, or too frightening to deal with directly. As awful as it may be to “feel fat”, it can sometimes be easier to keep those feelings at bay by focusing on body weight, by stuffing them down with food, by distracting ourselves with calorie counting, or by exercising excessively — if we don’t know how to allow the full force of uncomfortable emotions to flow through us.
We live in an emotionally illiterate culture where very few of us are taught how to experience our feelings with ease. It is often difficult for us to simply BE with our feelings so they can pass on their own accord. It is even more difficult to express them in a way that honors how we really feel — while simultaneously honoring the feelings and perceptions of others with whom we might be in conflict. So is it any wonder we would gravitate to whatever might distract us from our uncomfortable emotions? Is it any wonder that we would develop thoughts and behaviors that keep difficult feelings hidden – from ourselves and from others?
Food obsessions and disordered eating behaviors are very effective at keeping disconcerting emotions that arise from current situations or from painful memories out of our awareness. That is their function. The relief they provide, however, is only temporary, because if we continuously place our attention on thoughts about food, fat, and dieting without recognizing they are Red Herrings, those real problems to which our emotional guidance system is trying alert us never get revealed – and, consequently, never get resolved.
Imagine being able to see past the Red Herring. Imagine knowing that how to deal with what you are feeling, not with what you are eating, is what will ultimately solve the mystery of your struggles with food. How might your life be different?
Peace to you friends in Recovery. I am a Bulimic/Anorexic in early Recovery. After reading about the Red Herring metaphor, I am reminded how APPLICATION of what my True Self desires….is passionate for……supports my values—–that is my golden key to contentment.
Volunteering my singing and guitar playing in my town, advocating for a Clean Planet, supporting 12 step Fellowships, practicing Yoga & Meditation, cultivating meaningful relationships and letting go of toxic ones, asking my True Self what my body needs for nourishment that allows my mind, body and spirit to flow in harmony.
The theories and strategies stored inside of my brain are not enough to be honest about my disease. I need to actively practice decisions in my every day—–PLANNING out every detail sometimes until my I establish rhythm. Slowing down and asking to be relieved of paranoia/ anxiety, working with others who I have trust in their recovery until I trust my own, admitting when I am in denial about an appropriate diet (recently admitting my cleansing diet as insane for every day practice).
Telephone meetings with ABA are an enormous help to me.
My Red Herring can get super stinky if I let it.
I grow with each stumble and search for self LOVE.
True Love for myself makes that stink fade away. I pray you all deem yourselves as worthy of this LOVE.
HUGS
Meg
Well said, Anita, my experience exactly…
The red herring is the lure of not eating after 7PM, the diet that limits carbs and sugar, the scale, WW and Oprah as spokesperson……I recently wrote a poem about my art work called MY Way and I realize that every word I wrote is applicable to the struggle I have with self acceptance and loving and appreciating who I am which is intrinsically connected to the food thing….I didn’t sign up for the cafe this January because I thought I could do it on my own and now I realize this is the support I need……listening to my body and giving it what it wants and listening to my heart and giving it what it wants, listening to my mind, my spirit…all one…I am 61 and started dieting when I was 12…..I have done classes, therapy, read every book imaginable and I am ready to let go and surrender and heal….
I hear you Roberta, I honour your honesty. I hear your struggle. And I am totally behind you letting that way of being go. I en-COURAGE you today to love YOU like never before and to be with all of the feelings of being FULLY WOMAN. With love. Janelle Fletcher
I find that my Red Herring shows up when I’m having negative thoughts about myself. I know that I should be in support of my own existence and well being, yet my own internal environment seems to not be in support of me, even revolting against me. This confusion drives me deeper into diet planning and doubling up on my efforts in hopes of combating the war waging within me.